Dear honey :)
What a miraculous life I'm living now.. Some things I'm just thinking about, and suddenly they come. It always amazes me, on one hand, and on the other, gives this feeling of the world being together with me. So nice. :)
One weekend I was on a course, called holodynamics. I came there because its trainer, said that I could learn there some new ways to transform my emotions into desired ones.
Since it was in Haifa, and over weekend, I asked the trainer where I could sleep, and she offered me to sleep at her apartment.
The room she gave me, was full of books. And suddenly I felt the urge to take one of them, it was just white, no title. And it turned to be - guess what? ephemeris, the tables with all the planets/stars places in 20th century.
I started to look further, and saw a very, very rare book on astrology, that I had in Moscow, but thought I would never find again.. it had this amazing combination of astrology with esoterics and psychology, explaining things very deeply, explaining possibilities and directions. Meaning, on each aspect, it says "it gives these possibilities and restrictions, and when it's not worked through, it shows like this in a person, when it worked out more, it shows like this, and on working further, it has these and these possibilities."
In short, I got into temptation, dug through my email (I didn't remember the hour) and sat to make your horoscope.
..if I could love you more, after reading it I would. :) It showed the great, great inner work you had to be doing, to arrive to where you are now (remember the "working through" part?). It reminded me what an amazing person you are.
It showed, by the way, an interesting thing:
you Sun is in a very free position, which means not only that the usual horoscopes, describing a character, will not be accurate for you, but also -
that the circumstances and your ego usually don't force you into some specific area, you can be quite free in your choice, on what you will do, the way you live.
Weak Saturn, gives "the freedom that is too big for an average person." Meaning, freedom of laziness, circumstances giving you a great freedom of choice, weak conscience, weak feeling of duty/obligation, meaning, you have to develop the inner urge to act.
Which is made even more complex/funny/puzzling/complicating by having Mars in Pisces, meaning that to hold the efforts in one direction is very hard.
Quite a combination. :)
It was also about a very rich emotional life, with emotions being much more important/defining in your life than your ego. Life of your body, life of your soul playing a greater role.
Nobility of the soul life, learning with intuitive knowing of subconscience secrets, depth, sensitivity, ability to see things that probably only the future people will be able to estimate/appreciate (and you can just become bored of it and walk past it.. :), gifted. No practical goal on long distance of life, on one hand, and something (don't remember what) that you probably don't appreciate too much, but that saves you from many false ideas and projects. Ability to express with words delicate soul and aesthetic emotions. Not much patience. :)
I enjoyed reading about you. :)
