stockings
I should start wearing them again.. :)
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
מרוב אהבה
It was "מרוב אהבה", what I called "I'm getting silent when I fall in love". :)
here're the words
I now heard this song with Yosi Banai, it was so different! It's too quick :) Mati Caspi sang it more tenderly, romantically :) more like he sings ילדותי השניה, for example (I so love this studio version, it so reminds me of yesterday). It was beautiful, funny and very lovely.
It was so .. so good, all this evening, that I (I! of all people!) at some moment caught myself on a thought, or more a feeling: "if such songs exist, then probably this world is not that bad."
I want to tell you so much now, but I really have to go to sleep.. Good night my darling.
(k)
here're the words
I now heard this song with Yosi Banai, it was so different! It's too quick :) Mati Caspi sang it more tenderly, romantically :) more like he sings ילדותי השניה, for example (I so love this studio version, it so reminds me of yesterday). It was beautiful, funny and very lovely.
It was so .. so good, all this evening, that I (I! of all people!) at some moment caught myself on a thought, or more a feeling: "if such songs exist, then probably this world is not that bad."
I want to tell you so much now, but I really have to go to sleep.. Good night my darling.
(k)
Just came back from Mati Caspi's
live concert at Zappa Herzliya. It was.. beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!! I never thought he was so artistic. There were so many songs I never heard, and I so loved his jazz-like improvisation.. was just wonderful. Sometimes he played guitar, sometimes piano, and sang all kinds of songs - funny, very lovely. It started with "אני אמות בקיץ", and then there was some song.. I don't remember which.. that I just stood there and ..it was like praying together with the desire to hug the whole world. It was so beautiful.
Have you heard this song about "I'm getting silent when I fall in love"? Something like that, I don't remember exactly.
I'm so happy.
It also had so many coincidences.. all kinds of people helped me both to get there, and there, too - to take tea, to find the best place, etc. It was all magic. :)
מישהו
מישהו דואג
דואג לי שם למעלה
definitely :)
Have you heard this song about "I'm getting silent when I fall in love"? Something like that, I don't remember exactly.
I'm so happy.
It also had so many coincidences.. all kinds of people helped me both to get there, and there, too - to take tea, to find the best place, etc. It was all magic. :)
מישהו
מישהו דואג
דואג לי שם למעלה
definitely :)
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Wow..
I don’t just want
your heart
I want your flesh,
your skin
and blood and bones,
your voice, your thoughts
your pulse
and most of all your
fingerprints,
everywhere.
–Isobel Thrilling, “Lover”
your heart
I want your flesh,
your skin
and blood and bones,
your voice, your thoughts
your pulse
and most of all your
fingerprints,
everywhere.
–Isobel Thrilling, “Lover”
Remember?
Once we came to your home, and it was a movie playing there, you said it was a dog :) Remember?
I just remembered it and felt, .. I would like to put it as a soundtrack, put you on a bed .. and just lick you.. to all its honorable length. Lick and lick and lick.. listening to the sounds of the movie.. to the desires growing in our bodies..
and then take just its head to my (wet, warm, inviting) mouth.. just the head. And hold it there, caressing you, savouring you, enjoying it, sucking a little, tasting its deliciousness, smoothness, tenderness, its you-ness.
then glide over the shaft with the hand, and then just sit on you, and ride on you, more to our sounds than to movie's.. and then fall on you, my head on your chest,
listening to the movie.. listening to the desires continuing to come... listening to our bodies waking up again....
I just remembered it and felt, .. I would like to put it as a soundtrack, put you on a bed .. and just lick you.. to all its honorable length. Lick and lick and lick.. listening to the sounds of the movie.. to the desires growing in our bodies..
and then take just its head to my (wet, warm, inviting) mouth.. just the head. And hold it there, caressing you, savouring you, enjoying it, sucking a little, tasting its deliciousness, smoothness, tenderness, its you-ness.
then glide over the shaft with the hand, and then just sit on you, and ride on you, more to our sounds than to movie's.. and then fall on you, my head on your chest,
listening to the movie.. listening to the desires continuing to come... listening to our bodies waking up again....
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
What a luck!!
I just came to "Mike's Place" here next to us. And dared to ask for just a puree and a salad - because I like it the way they prepare it, and I didn't want any chicken.
They not just gave it to me, they also sat me down at a place, where it wouldn't be cold from the door.
And then......... sitting there, I suddenly realized, the music was not just playing. I raised my head and saw a live show! There was someone there, playing guitar and singing! I don't know the styles too much :) I think it was kind of jazz! I think, it was the first time I heard a live concert of such music.
He sang a song I loved, I asked the singer what it was - he said, it was Crosby, Stills & Nash "Love The One You're With". I told him I really liked his way of singing, and then the next song he sang for me!
It was this:
Live! wasn't it beautiful! After this song, he started packing - it turned out, that by chance I managed to come there on time, by chance took the best place to see the show.. Life is amazing.
By the way, the food was just perfect, too. :)
And he said, he would be there on Tuesdays! Woo-hoo!
They not just gave it to me, they also sat me down at a place, where it wouldn't be cold from the door.
And then......... sitting there, I suddenly realized, the music was not just playing. I raised my head and saw a live show! There was someone there, playing guitar and singing! I don't know the styles too much :) I think it was kind of jazz! I think, it was the first time I heard a live concert of such music.
He sang a song I loved, I asked the singer what it was - he said, it was Crosby, Stills & Nash "Love The One You're With". I told him I really liked his way of singing, and then the next song he sang for me!
It was this:
Live! wasn't it beautiful! After this song, he started packing - it turned out, that by chance I managed to come there on time, by chance took the best place to see the show.. Life is amazing.
By the way, the food was just perfect, too. :)
And he said, he would be there on Tuesdays! Woo-hoo!
Monday, January 25, 2010
Wow
When a child has a dream and a parent says, "It's not financially feasible; you can't make a living at that; don't do it," we say to the child, run away from home... You must follow your dream. You will never be joyful if you don't. Your dream may change, but you've got to stay after your dreams. You have to.
--- Abraham
never heard it that imperative..
--- Abraham
never heard it that imperative..
Saturday, January 23, 2010
"Maybe we need it, to realize what we've got"
"Life's amazing now, and nobody is happy about it." :)
Friday, January 22, 2010
It's unimaginable
What happens to me these days, what synchronicities.. amazing.
A friend of mine, sent to me an invitation to a theatric improvisation group, it said "lots of fun, you'll be your playful self," etc.
And it was :) it was in TA, I think 5 or 10 minutes from your home. I realized it when I almost came there and suddenly saw the tower that I saw from your window. I got chills :) trying to gather myself back, ok, I came there, still under impression..
When we started to do the exercises, 2 new girls came. One of them stood immediately next to me. This exercise included saying our names. This girl turns to me and says your name. WHAT??!! I can understand everything, honey, I see many synchronistic things around me, but in God's sake, in the middle of a Russian theatre improvisation group!! A girl!! With your name! standing next to ME out of all other people!!
For a moment I thought I'm going crazy :). Next 10 minutes I was gathering my sanity back. :)
What was interesting, - in the end, when they were discussing what they liked and what not - it turned out that usually they did something different, and this time they didn't really like because it was more fun than really a theatre thing. And I was there for the first time, so I didn't know how it had to be, and I just expected (intended?) it to be fun, and it was. It was my way. :)
What I liked there, was - in many exercises I could really be just what I wanted to be, I could invent myself as I wanted. It was such a freedom.
These days I had a discussion with someone at work - he said, we should understand what's going on, and come with conclusions. And I said, it's like describing all our life someone else's statues instead of just creating our own.
Also, in some clip about winning the lottery, it was said that usually we try to guess the numbers that would win. When a different approach could be, to choose the numbers and then to allow the reality to support us, to make them winning. Such a different, freeing feeling.
(When I'm hearing the word "feeling", I remember you and me in bed. Good association? :))
(You know, today when I was going there, I suddenly felt it, I got this almost-physical feeling of licking the head of.. of you. I did it with such a pleasure in this vision. It was more "sensing" than "vision", it was so.. palpable. I licked it, and I felt its taste, and texture, its smoothness, with pleasure, amazement.. appreciation.. enjoying it.)
So regarding the theatre group - I guess, it was both: I did create, even not-so-intentionally, my feeling of what it could be, and let it be so, just having fun, and it was. :)
I also liked how I came there. :) I went to do a bath when it was like, an hour and 20 min. from starting the class. And for some moment I felt guilt, but then I said to myself, ok, I'm going to enjoy it, and let it be harmonious with me. "The way I do it - is the right way for the events to go."
So I did the bath, then dried my hair, dressed up, in a calm, secure tempo went to a bus station. The MOMENT I came to the station, מונית שרות came.
Then I arrived to the central bus station in TA and made my way to the studio (Levontin 7-9). I was late for 50 minutes. And yet, I held this calm feeling inside, "it's going the right way for me." The moment I came to the studio and took my jacket off, AND SAT to their circle, they started. :)
Such amazing things happen. I think, if I would try to imagine it before, I would say - no, it just can't happen, it's too good to be true. Life is soo teaching sometimes.. :)
A friend of mine, sent to me an invitation to a theatric improvisation group, it said "lots of fun, you'll be your playful self," etc.
And it was :) it was in TA, I think 5 or 10 minutes from your home. I realized it when I almost came there and suddenly saw the tower that I saw from your window. I got chills :) trying to gather myself back, ok, I came there, still under impression..
When we started to do the exercises, 2 new girls came. One of them stood immediately next to me. This exercise included saying our names. This girl turns to me and says your name. WHAT??!! I can understand everything, honey, I see many synchronistic things around me, but in God's sake, in the middle of a Russian theatre improvisation group!! A girl!! With your name! standing next to ME out of all other people!!
For a moment I thought I'm going crazy :). Next 10 minutes I was gathering my sanity back. :)
What was interesting, - in the end, when they were discussing what they liked and what not - it turned out that usually they did something different, and this time they didn't really like because it was more fun than really a theatre thing. And I was there for the first time, so I didn't know how it had to be, and I just expected (intended?) it to be fun, and it was. It was my way. :)
What I liked there, was - in many exercises I could really be just what I wanted to be, I could invent myself as I wanted. It was such a freedom.
These days I had a discussion with someone at work - he said, we should understand what's going on, and come with conclusions. And I said, it's like describing all our life someone else's statues instead of just creating our own.
Also, in some clip about winning the lottery, it was said that usually we try to guess the numbers that would win. When a different approach could be, to choose the numbers and then to allow the reality to support us, to make them winning. Such a different, freeing feeling.
(When I'm hearing the word "feeling", I remember you and me in bed. Good association? :))
(You know, today when I was going there, I suddenly felt it, I got this almost-physical feeling of licking the head of.. of you. I did it with such a pleasure in this vision. It was more "sensing" than "vision", it was so.. palpable. I licked it, and I felt its taste, and texture, its smoothness, with pleasure, amazement.. appreciation.. enjoying it.)
So regarding the theatre group - I guess, it was both: I did create, even not-so-intentionally, my feeling of what it could be, and let it be so, just having fun, and it was. :)
I also liked how I came there. :) I went to do a bath when it was like, an hour and 20 min. from starting the class. And for some moment I felt guilt, but then I said to myself, ok, I'm going to enjoy it, and let it be harmonious with me. "The way I do it - is the right way for the events to go."
So I did the bath, then dried my hair, dressed up, in a calm, secure tempo went to a bus station. The MOMENT I came to the station, מונית שרות came.
Then I arrived to the central bus station in TA and made my way to the studio (Levontin 7-9). I was late for 50 minutes. And yet, I held this calm feeling inside, "it's going the right way for me." The moment I came to the studio and took my jacket off, AND SAT to their circle, they started. :)
Such amazing things happen. I think, if I would try to imagine it before, I would say - no, it just can't happen, it's too good to be true. Life is soo teaching sometimes.. :)
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Liked this version :)
not the way he sings - too sweet, it lacks your maleness :), but the arrangement, I think.
there're more here.
Inside
I see you. I feel you. I feel your legs over mine, on mine. I feel your fingers, your hand down there, between my legs, middle finger inside me, the thumb starts massaging the button. I'm all in this feeling..
Your left hand caresses my breasts, the right one, the left one, the right one.. my nipples are so stony hard, they bustle into your palm, roughly, scratchily gliding over its surface, as if wanting more, more than they're getting now..
I shiver with this inner desire, to feel you inside me, with all the walls there, to wrap, to experience you.
And you suddenly take your hand away, and hug me down there with your mouth. It is such a pleasure!! I say "yes, yes, that's what I wanted!" & I mean it, but inside, still, there is that desire, to feel you with all my inner muscles.
My vagina calls you, calls to you, and even though we both feel rich, long-desired, manifested, brought-to-this-moment pleasure (the word 'enjoying' is too weak for what we feel.. we eat, we drink this sharp rich pleasure),
we both long for this deep contact, when I feel you, you feel me, you fill me with yourself, we feel each other fully, intensively. Yes, that's the word for that oral pleasure above: intense.
Your left hand caresses my breasts, the right one, the left one, the right one.. my nipples are so stony hard, they bustle into your palm, roughly, scratchily gliding over its surface, as if wanting more, more than they're getting now..
I shiver with this inner desire, to feel you inside me, with all the walls there, to wrap, to experience you.
And you suddenly take your hand away, and hug me down there with your mouth. It is such a pleasure!! I say "yes, yes, that's what I wanted!" & I mean it, but inside, still, there is that desire, to feel you with all my inner muscles.
My vagina calls you, calls to you, and even though we both feel rich, long-desired, manifested, brought-to-this-moment pleasure (the word 'enjoying' is too weak for what we feel.. we eat, we drink this sharp rich pleasure),
we both long for this deep contact, when I feel you, you feel me, you fill me with yourself, we feel each other fully, intensively. Yes, that's the word for that oral pleasure above: intense.
Sometimes
it just seems to be unbearable. I so want to feel you inside me, above me, hold your shoulders, look into your eyes, feel how close you are..
Good night darling. :)
Good night darling. :)
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Good song :)
That's life, that's what all the people say.
You're riding high in April,
Shot down in May
But I know I'm gonna change that tune,
When I'm back on top, back on top in June.
I said that's life, and as funny as it may seem
Some people get their kicks,
Stompin' on a dream
But I don't let it, let it get me down,
'Cause this fine ol' world it keeps spinning around
I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate,
A poet, a pawn and a king.
I've been up and down and over and out
And I know one thing:
Each time I find myself, flat on my face,
I pick myself up and get back in the race.
That's life
I tell ya, I can't deny it,
I thought of quitting baby,
But my heart just ain't gonna buy it.
And if I didn't think it was worth one single try,
I'd jump right on a big bird and then I'd fly
I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate,
A poet, a pawn and a king.
I've been up and down and over and out
And I know one thing:
Each time I find myself laying flat on my face,
I just pick myself up and get back in the race
That's life
That's life and I can't deny it
Many times I thought of cutting out
But my heart won't buy it
But if there's nothing shakin' come this here july
I'm gonna roll myself up in a big ball and die
My, My
+, I loved the neck here,
and the breast here
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Imale :)
"Best music for SEX" as they say..
I wonder what sex it is for. :) And as an echo to my words, the first comment I saw there, was "I don't wanna know for what kind of sex this music is good." :)
I wonder what sex it is for. :) And as an echo to my words, the first comment I saw there, was "I don't wanna know for what kind of sex this music is good." :)
Friday, January 15, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Funny enough
The Butcher's Ballroom, by Diablo Swing Orchestra
it's music.
very different from all I heard. I see from people's reactions there, that for them, too )
touches, triggers, powerful.
at jamendo, there is a lot of music I liked. this for example:
INSIDE by Paolo Pavan
very nice, peaceful, comfortable jazz
it's music.
very different from all I heard. I see from people's reactions there, that for them, too )
touches, triggers, powerful.
at jamendo, there is a lot of music I liked. this for example:
INSIDE by Paolo Pavan
very nice, peaceful, comfortable jazz
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Yesterday
..I was at an audition for singing, at M., my official employer. It was good. :)
At the beginning I was a little nervous, but then I said to myself: "Here is one of those cases, where I'm doing it (the audition itself) exclusively for fun, so what should I be afraid of?"
And I just concentrated on pleasure, in the singing. They said: "Thank you very much, it was beautiful! את מאוד מוזיקלית. Just please pay attention, that on repetitions you will have to sing with your eyes open." :)
I said ok. :)
At the beginning I was a little nervous, but then I said to myself: "Here is one of those cases, where I'm doing it (the audition itself) exclusively for fun, so what should I be afraid of?"
And I just concentrated on pleasure, in the singing. They said: "Thank you very much, it was beautiful! את מאוד מוזיקלית. Just please pay attention, that on repetitions you will have to sing with your eyes open." :)
I said ok. :)
Monday, January 11, 2010
Wonderful
"Embrace all that is yet to be loved." -- Story Waters
The full quote:
"What you see as unlovable in yourself is not unlovable. It is only the story that you tell yourself about it that you are calling unlovable. That which you are finding hard to love is not the thing itself; it is your definition of it. To come to see it with clarity is to see it with love and that is to say complete allowance. To love yourself is to see through your perceptions of all you see as unlovable. Embrace all that is yet to be loved."
The full quote:
"What you see as unlovable in yourself is not unlovable. It is only the story that you tell yourself about it that you are calling unlovable. That which you are finding hard to love is not the thing itself; it is your definition of it. To come to see it with clarity is to see it with love and that is to say complete allowance. To love yourself is to see through your perceptions of all you see as unlovable. Embrace all that is yet to be loved."
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Beautiful..
Quiero hacer contigo
lo que la primavera
hace con los cerezos
I want to do with you what spring does with cherry trees.
—Neruda
lo que la primavera
hace con los cerezos
I want to do with you what spring does with cherry trees.
—Neruda
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
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