What happens to me these days, what synchronicities.. amazing.
A friend of mine, sent to me an invitation to a theatric improvisation group, it said "lots of fun, you'll be your playful self," etc.
And it was :) it was in TA, I think 5 or 10 minutes from your home. I realized it when I almost came there and suddenly saw the tower that I saw from your window. I got chills :) trying to gather myself back, ok, I came there, still under impression..
When we started to do the exercises, 2 new girls came. One of them stood immediately next to me. This exercise included saying our names. This girl turns to me and says your name. WHAT??!! I can understand everything, honey, I see many synchronistic things around me, but in God's sake, in the middle of a Russian theatre improvisation group!! A girl!! With your name! standing next to ME out of all other people!!
For a moment I thought I'm going crazy :). Next 10 minutes I was gathering my sanity back. :)
What was interesting, - in the end, when they were discussing what they liked and what not - it turned out that usually they did something different, and this time they didn't really like because it was more fun than really a theatre thing. And I was there for the first time, so I didn't know how it had to be, and I just expected (intended?) it to be fun, and it was. It was my way. :)
What I liked there, was - in many exercises I could really be just what I wanted to be, I could invent myself as I wanted. It was such a freedom.
These days I had a discussion with someone at work - he said, we should understand what's going on, and come with conclusions. And I said, it's like describing all our life someone else's statues instead of just creating our own.
Also, in some clip about winning the lottery, it was said that usually we try to guess the numbers that would win. When a different approach could be, to choose the numbers and then to allow the reality to support us, to make them winning. Such a different, freeing feeling.
(When I'm hearing the word "feeling", I remember you and me in bed. Good association? :))
(You know, today when I was going there, I suddenly felt it, I got this almost-physical feeling of licking the head of.. of you. I did it with such a pleasure in this vision. It was more "sensing" than "vision", it was so.. palpable. I licked it, and I felt its taste, and texture, its smoothness, with pleasure, amazement.. appreciation.. enjoying it.)
So regarding the theatre group - I guess, it was both: I did create, even not-so-intentionally, my feeling of what it could be, and let it be so, just having fun, and it was. :)
I also liked how I came there. :) I went to do a bath when it was like, an hour and 20 min. from starting the class. And for some moment I felt guilt, but then I said to myself, ok, I'm going to enjoy it, and let it be harmonious with me. "The way I do it - is the right way for the events to go."
So I did the bath, then dried my hair, dressed up, in a calm, secure tempo went to a bus station. The MOMENT I came to the station, מונית שרות came.
Then I arrived to the central bus station in TA and made my way to the studio (Levontin 7-9). I was late for 50 minutes. And yet, I held this calm feeling inside, "it's going the right way for me." The moment I came to the studio and took my jacket off, AND SAT to their circle, they started. :)
Such amazing things happen. I think, if I would try to imagine it before, I would say - no, it just can't happen, it's too good to be true. Life is soo teaching sometimes.. :)
