I just asked myself, what is this tension between us, and thought that it is as if, I want you to behave in a certain way, and you don't want it, and don't want me depend on you. It's as if I depend on what you do, in my happiness.
But it's not. If anyone is to blame for me falling for you :) - it's my Inner Being that just doesn't agree to anyone else, and is pushing me towards you. But it doesn't have to be you - in the end it can be someone like you, if you so don't want it.
If I don't get something I want, it's only between me and Me. And you're a good friend, a person I admire, a man I love. But you don't owe me anything, as well as I don't owe anything to you, we're two free happy beings. :)
P.S. I posted it, and now am going here restless: it's as if I told you "go away". I didn't. I want to be with you. I feel you, I know you, I enjoy being with you. I love who I am when I am with you. I love who you are when I am with you. :) Darling-darling, why can't we just be friends. :) Without drama.
..free being that I am....... :)
