Hi dear,
You probably heard what was happening yesterday at C. I got fired from our team, too. They're trying to find me something else, by the end of the day it was not sure yet, as they said 99% sure that it will be.
For me, and all my fears of change, yesterday it was a very very tense day. Very fruitful, though. I realized many things that otherwise haven't. I realized I would never be the same, holding those fears of a little girl..
"By chance" :) a week ago I scheduled a day off today (not knowing what would be yesterday), because there is some meeting today at Bituah Leumi regarding A.
So it came very handy. I was lying on a sofa, having put the Tuning In, one of my favorite teaching movies, somewhat drifting in my thoughts, trying to find my way. I tried to ask myself: "What is it that I believe in, that causes me such a pain?" And it suddenly downed on me:
I felt that bad yesterday because of my believing that the physical circumstances would rule for me, that they would define how I feel and what I experience. And suddenly I realized, that it DOESN'T MATTER, what it will be with that position, with this situation. That no matter what the physical circumstances are, my experience will be the same, because that's what I set up with my beliefs, my vibration, my energy alignment with my Source.
And I became calm and relaxed. It became easy. => it was right for me. :)
